Late night thinkings and happenings.

i don't feel like talking to anybody right now.

i don't like to be rude. even when its honestly what i want.
do i need to learn to do things i don't want to? or do i need to be assertive and deal with the consequences? there is only one person i know that i would be interested in talking to right now. its interesting how particular people are more appealing to be around in particular moods and contexts. I don't like "going out" to meet guys. that's weirdt. i also do not enjoy talking to guys online. like i do, but i hate not having a damn thing to talk about.

hey man whats up

-hi! not muchh. you?

just chillin watching some tv and winding down
how are you tonight man

-tiredd. i had a long evening. how are you?

good good. getting tired. ha

-have we met in person before?

-lol

i dont believe so

sorry to bother you i suppose

-lol what? you're fine
oh- i thought maybe that was my cue to leave you alone
-haha. nope. what do you wanna talk about?
idk im open for discussion
-gaga.

i'm bored. i don't care. tonight at work i decided i'll be pushing the blue shorts. i just want to see how many people i can get to buy blue shorts. lol

so what do you do?

3:06am

i work, kinda go to school, and do a lot of other stuffff

3:06am

cool

kinda go to school?

lol

3:18am

haha yeah.

what do you do?

3:19am

school work's my biggest thing

oh. what? that's good. 3:23am

3:23am

school and work play the largest part in my life

i don't know if i want kids. I have a slight desire to procreate but if i had a kid i might as well adopt a child. but do i really want to split MY life and raise another human being? i feel i might just want a family because i feel it fights the idea that being gay kills the american dream. do i want the american dream? i have so much to consider.

yep yep

so how are you kinda in school

haha

3:27am

it's comlicated. i'm in the process of transferrig

3:28am

cool from where to where

3:32am

i don't know. do you think i'm cute?

3:32am

yes sir

i don't know what i'm going to do about schooooolllll...